pendek je entry ni..

hari ni hari plg mengantok..class straight xde rehat,huuhuhu..

xtau nape skrg ramai lak buat post bkenaan bnde yg i just mention in my previous post. kebetulan pulak. tapi ade la 1 post ni yg ramai gak org x berkenan,termasuklah sy. mmg x boleh dnafikn. sy ade pndgn sendiri trhadap itu,tetapi mls la nk ckp byk. bole je nk ckp byk sbb ini kn space saye sukehati bole ckp psl ape yg sy rase. tp pape pn, sy rase ramai bersetuju dgn sy,hoho.ketahuilah anda bhw post anda itu hanyalah membuatkn kami rase bhawa anda hanya berprasaan merasekn anda itu sgt baik n perfect.mgkn anda x sebegitu perasan,tp cara anda menulis menggambarkn anda sebegitu, jd i suggest u to improve your way of writing,so people will respect u w/out even reading ur post.

i better study for next week, bye2.

yah: hanya mampu tersenyum..ish3x

fasa mengembalikan mood (^_^)

lamanya x menulis..mood utk menulis kdg2 je dtg,arini pon xde bnde nk tulis tp sbb tkot tertido awl sgt mcm smlm, so pakse jugak diri utk menshare sumthing dlm diari intenet ni,hehehe.

my life as a student : x busy lgsg + baru siap buat case review utk angina von ludwig, sgt simple coz name pon review,hehe. tghari td study crp sket2, mlm ni mcm bese : mlm yg xpernah diisi dgn study ~ walopun ade ketika x ngntok tp tetap xnak study sbb ntah knape mlm2 mmg xnak study. tido jugak sprti biase, kalo x direct pas isyak, kul9 wajib tutup lampu. fiza n nas msti da fhm sgt da, hehehe. kalo x tutup2 gak lmpu tym kul9 tu, meaning, xtutup2 la smpai pagi coz dah tertido n xsmpat nk tutup lampu.huahua :P

my life as a student yg bercuti : khamis aritu buat ape ek,owwhhh, aritu bgn awl2 pagi nk g FK coz nk amek rumput carpet lawa yg org keje kt fk tu buang coz dorg amek yg lawa2 je, yg xlawa skit dorg buang..tp actually yg x lawa bg dorg tu still lawa gak, membazir btul kn org FK ni, huhu. tp usaha ktorg tgendala sbb awal2 pg tu da ade pakcik satpam jaga kt A5 tu, x sporting la pak guard tu, org nk amek yg org projek tu x pakai je, tu pn die kate x boleh amek..huhu..pdhl smlm mmg org projek tu kate x gune da rumput tu..huhuhu..x sporting..xsporting..tpakse la pegi cibiru beli rumput.. skrg kt blakg rumh da ade rmput karpet utk rabbit,best2!!

jumaat : g dinner hari raya anjurn kedutaan besar malaysia d indonesia : venue - hotel puri khatulistiwa, hmmm..tumpuan adelah mknn sahaje kerana tujuan sy pergi pun memanglah semate2 utk mkn.mknn sedap so pulang senang hati,hehe. kalo xsedap,next year try dtg lagi,mgkn next year sedap skit.

sabtu: hmmmm..smlm buat ape ek, x ingt..recall2..hmmmm..waaaa..nape x ingt ni..huhuhu...jap recall lg..hmmm.ooowhhh, smlm xde buat pape,sbb tu x ingt sgt.. main2 ngan rabbit, study, pegi psr cikuda, tu je.

ahad : pegi paun mkn nasi kuning n ikan bkr ( ni pun nk mention :p) n beli pellet utk rabbit, owh td tgk rabbit kt paun yg da berumur 6buln..waaa..sgt2 comel, berbulu tebal..hope2 my rabbit ni nanti akn jd comel n gebu mcm tu, xsbar nk tgu 5buln lg.. msti jap je kn waktu berlalu.. best la ade rabbit, bosan2 study or bosan2 xstudy, bole main2 ngan rabbit..dorg tu comel2..lgkh kecik2, pastu kuat mkn plak tu..bulu dorg pn tebal..sbb rabbit aritu mati (sbb kucing jht), last wik beli lg secouple rabbit. naqi pn beli secouple rabbit sbb ktorg dah addicted dgn rabbit, pg td fahmi sheikh pn beli secouple rabbit so skrg combine sume skali ade 6ekor rabbit, hope sume rabbit2 ni hidup lame smpai beranak pinak, so nanti bole buat bisnes rabbit,hoho;P tak pun, buat barbeque rabbit =P tp sape la yg snggup nk bg rabbit die kne sembelih,isk2..kesian..xnak la..

ok la da isyak, nk g smyg n tido,bye2 (^_^)


BERKENAAN POST SEBELUM INI..

::alhamdulillah, kekuatan itu dtg::doakan kami::

dtglah wahai kekuatan...

Assalamualaikum...

Dear diary,

feel like writing something today..i have 2 weeks more..to gather all the STRENGTH remain in me..to ask ONE BIG THING, to my parents..janji harus ditepati..yah..yahh...am i strong enough to ask them, without any support from anyone..not even my sis, who, i owez thought wud be here with me to make things easier..i never thought things will turn out like this..huhuhuhu~

rase bersalah dgn Allah, diri sendiri, malu dgn org sekeliling...for all bad things i did the whole year.. i know it's wrong..if only i knew about this, i wouldn't let myself get into it..how come, i never knew about it before?of all good things i learned, i never knew about this..how JAHIL i was. in fact, i'm JAHIL in many things..dulu dan skrg..

"bercouple itu haram" - full stop. i did some research on the internet, and from any sources which can lead me to an acceptable answer. many opinions. many ideas. many fights.but i can say that - i agree with the above statement.

sedikit flashback..i think, keadaan sekeliling sgtlah membahayakn utk org islam yg x berilmu pengetahuan, yg skdr beramal ikut org lain, ikut ape yg org praktik kt asrama..ikut ape yg org2 tua buat...w/out asking the relevance of what we are doing.. dan SAYA adelah : boleh dikatekn org seperti itu..i do what i think is right.. BUT most of the time , what i think IS RIGHT, is not that RIGHT..

i never knew bercouple itu haram..when i'm into the situation [of what people call 'bercouple'].. barulah sy tahu yg bercouple itu haram. So, if you were in my place ... what IS your decision NEXT??
keadaan sekeliling dah merubah ramai org utk memandang baik ape yg kite buat..smpai kdg2 kite lupe yg mana 1 halal n yg mana 1 hrm..sdgkn= yg HALAL itu NYATA, yg HARAM itu NYATA..

and my weakness IS: i am not good in conveying WHAT I KNOW to those who don't know. seriously, I AM NOT GOOD at it. utk mnyampaikn ilmu baru ini, kelebihan 'tabligh' itu xde dlm diri ni..i myself did mistakes, terase malu utk mnympaikn sesuatu yg kite sndiri buat..walaupun niat tu slalu ade dlm hati..

x nak ckp pnjg2 psl ni, cume berharap KEKUATAN itu dtg utk melangkah lebih berani, n semoga usaha yg akan dtg ini mdapat berkat n redha ALLAH s.w.t..AMIN...AMIN..AMIN...

insan : being pleased to themselves~

5 days w/out any posts~x busy but lazy :p im not going to tell everyone how NOT BUSY i was ( i think im d ONE n ONLY medical student yg tido jam8 every nite)~

but today i feel lyk saying sumthing about 'a thing' yg dah lame sgt, berkurun2 dah tersimpan dlm hati, yg xtau bile nk di expresskn..huhu~ ntah la sesuai or x,tp xpe la, dah lame sgt tersimpan, sesuai or x sesuai letak tepi..pape pn, ni cume lah my own feeling, tp of course la bkaitan dgn yg hidup n dah mati :)

tp usually, bnde2 yg x best, itu yg kte rase nk tulis kn, whyy??nape xnak tulis bnde2 yg best? pdhl bnde yg best lg byk dr bnde yg x besh..ini buknlah bnde yg xbest, cume x suke je..(ade beza x?). n dis is about people. hmmmm..penah x terlintas d hati anda, utk 'kurg menyenangi' sifat "UJUB" yg ada pd diri org lain, yg org tu x ckp yg die bangga dgn ape yg die ade (kelebihan pape la) tp from the perangai n from the perbuatan n perckpn, u can detect the UJUBness there. [i like to see people. but i dont wanna judge them if i dont know them very well. so dis case is never related to org jauh2. tp org dkat2 tidak semestinye related.hmmmm~i want to talk bout this generally.]

kdg2, org2 yg ade aura2 "ujub" ni bese adelh org2 yg jrg dpt ape yg die nak. yela, org yg da dpt, or org yg dah bese dgn bnde2 yg die nak, kind of dah puas dgn hidup,or dah bese dgn "keajaiban" or "kelebihan", so nothing more impressiveR (sory melebih2kn) can make them impressed.sbb tu la org dah berumur bese lebih matang,coz da capai byk bnde n kejayaan dlm hidup. I rily wanna live n surrounded with org2 matang mcm ni.tp memikirkn bnde2 mcm ni timbulkn bnde lain pulak --> apekah sy sudah tua utk rase nk hidup dgn org2 tua??huhhuhu~

n, org2 yg tak kecapi lg ape yg die dpt, sebolehnye nk berusaha tnjukkn kebolehan diri, but sumtymes terlebih2 smpai timbulkn rase 'kurg senang' di hti org2 skeliling.. slhkah utk rase annoying dgn org mcm ni?or maybe i shouldn't write bout this here?mayb i should directly pray to Allah : to change n at least make the perangai of this kind of ppl more acceptable?

hmmm..mgkn ade yg pk, btolkah org ni ade rase ujub? how do i know? hmmm,maybe i get them wrong.but im 22years old now, dah x terkire brape bungkus garam kt dapur da hbis utk mkn, utk mmahami org lain..i juz feel it.. i perasaan jrg menipu,kn?ke perasaan pun slalu tipu?hmmm...

im not a close-minded person, bukn xnak trime type org2 mcm ni..i oso want to be a matured girl. but i owez look down ppl who underestimate others.as if they r too perfect to condemn others. dr dulu, i keep in mind dat "MATURITY" - is when u can accept people for who they are. sumthing lyk, bile org ni wat cmtu..so kte pn kne ckp "xpe la..die mmg mcm tu, lame2 berubah la tu"..or "pelan2 lah..bg die mase", ataupn.. "xpe la, bese la tu, kn manusia ni ade mcm2 jenis..kalo x, bosan la hidup ni"..yess, dulu n even skrg, i owez try to hv dis kinds of thought to others..tp i admit my level of kesabarn pn ada bts..n the level of accepting others pn ade bts..kdg2 rase 'kurg senang' tu dtg..

i know, by writing bout this here, i wont change anythng, tp ckuplah ade yg tahu...n ade yg memahami..ok la bye2!

PEREMPUAN dan PMS ~ camane nk control..:(

Assalamualaikum,

Bcoz im havin problm creating a frenster blog, i decided to have one here- after a couple of times deleting my accounts.huhu.

So, for my 1st post, i'd like to say sumthing about my own prob, which i think were experienced by most women out there..pliz forgive me for any wrong ideas of my thinking. It is about PMS-or pre-menstrual syndrome. Why this topic? coz im having it rite now, n im quite annoyed with it.huhu~ let it be more interesting to read..

sape yg penah kne PMS ni, sure tau la kn how it feels. ntahla, sumtymes we know it's gonna happen, but we juz dunno how to cntrol it. kdg2 bole je, tp tu pn if xde bnde yg trigger,huhu.

smlm, i went to jatos, pegi superindo nk beli air minum, kt stu ramai org,tp kaunter yg bukak 2 je. pastu line pnjg, n ade la sorg budak ni, da line pnjg mcm tu, die pegi potong turn lak, masuk2 in front of me, da la brg die byk 1 bakul, mine hanyelah sebotol air n setin air, rase nk ketuk je kpale budak tu dgn air tin tym tu. nsb baik la ni negara indon, which is his country, not my country. haha. xleh imagine if sy ketuk kpale budak tu :p bukn ape, mmg xkn ketuk pn, tp siyes rase mcm nk ketuk tu ade.huhu.

pastu, cashier kt kauntr tu lg satu hal, da tau line pnjg, n kaunter 2 je, buat la mcm 2kaunter. buat keje punye la lmbt, pastu asyik pegi sane pg sni pg stu..huhu.. when it was my turn, smpat g die nk kire2 duit beratus2 ribu yg byk tu, mgkn ade kpntingn die wat mcm tu, tp tym tu i was like, so angry with the guy b4 me, just cudnt cntrol my anger.

pastu, otw nk kuar naek atas, org kt eskalator in front of me, i think dis is the 1st time die naik eskalator kot. (ni btol2, bukn lawak,hehe). die nk naik eskalator, tp lmbt2 coz takut kot, so i wait for her to be on the escalator, cian die, tp sbb tym tu mood tgh x ok, rase mcm x sabar pn ade gak.huhu.nsb baik la die buat lawak tym escalator tu da nk hbis, i thought nk lgkh kuar dr escalator tu lg sng utk die, rupenye tak. hihi. xleh cite how the thing happened, jd x lawak lak, tp xpela. abaikn cite tu.hehe.

I quickly realized dat it's time for my pms, n bnde2 kecik mcm ni pn leh bwat rase 'panas' di dlm hati.huhu.
Lg, bnde2 yg brlaku smlm n hari ni yg sgt obvious to show the significance of PMS in me :

1-smlm budak junior bale buat bising kt blakang, i was sooo angry wif them, jerit2 bising mcm kne histeria. nsb baik skrg xde exam.hhuhu.

2-pg td, bgn pg nk bekfes, tym tgh pnskn mknn kt dapur, i left my food jap coz nk tadah air kt toilet, xsmpai 3minit pn, n time kuar nk g amek fud, kucing dgn bestnye tgh mkn my fud.

3- pg td, mop lantai kt bwh, da bersih da sume, so naik atas lipat baju jap. n tym turun bwh balik, kt lntai, penuh dgn tapak kaki kucing yg bertanah2.waaaaaaaa...can u imagine how i feel..huhuhu~

There's not much i knew about PMS, but i did learn bout it during my repro sem last yr, PMS ni ade 2 kinds of symptoms : physical and psychological.

Physical symptom cntohnye headache,fatigue, breast tenderness, n bloating. x sume org akan rase symptom2 ni, from kajian only about 75% of women. tp byk la tu kn.

Psychological symptom plak : rase annoying dgn org, cpt marah, emosi tganngu, tension n low mood. this one i believe most of us pnah rase kn.

BUT the thing is, HOW to cntrol? i tried to study more on this thing. tp the only basic thing i know is, prior to menses, the effectiveness of SSRI (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor) is increased. means, less synaptic serotonin kn? i bet some of u hv no idea bout what serotonin is. It is a hormone. n basically it increases mood. waktu PMS, serotonin level kurg coz reuptake is inhibited. sbb tu la kot kte pmpuan2 bese akn cpt mrh tym ni. tp serotonin not only low during menses, bile2 pn serotonin leh kurg. time nk exam, kalo bole, mkn la byk2 chocolate.

Ramai tau kn dlm choc ade byk serotonin, xtau la ni psychological effect or not, tp after i knew all bout this, i tried to eat choc more, n everytime i eat, my mood increased.haha. xtau la. tp dats what i feel.

Lg 1, ade 1 of my fren said in nenas, ade byk tryptophan (an amino acid) which is essential in synthesizing serotonin. so mkn la nenas byk2 insyaAllah mood akn ok blk,hehehe.

ok la, da pnjg da, actually x leh type lame2, da kelam kabut dah skrg coz betri laptop da nk hbes. xde letrik tp nk gak tulis blog,huhu. kalo ade slh pape dlm pengetahuan sy yg terbatas ini, sile lah tegur k. Juz wanna share sumthing, coz dis pms sgtlah mengganggu me kdg2.huhu

sekian, wslm