Friday, 17 October 2008

dtglah wahai kekuatan...

Assalamualaikum...

Dear diary,

feel like writing something today..i have 2 weeks more..to gather all the STRENGTH remain in me..to ask ONE BIG THING, to my parents..janji harus ditepati..yah..yahh...am i strong enough to ask them, without any support from anyone..not even my sis, who, i owez thought wud be here with me to make things easier..i never thought things will turn out like this..huhuhuhu~

rase bersalah dgn Allah, diri sendiri, malu dgn org sekeliling...for all bad things i did the whole year.. i know it's wrong..if only i knew about this, i wouldn't let myself get into it..how come, i never knew about it before?of all good things i learned, i never knew about this..how JAHIL i was. in fact, i'm JAHIL in many things..dulu dan skrg..

"bercouple itu haram" - full stop. i did some research on the internet, and from any sources which can lead me to an acceptable answer. many opinions. many ideas. many fights.but i can say that - i agree with the above statement.

sedikit flashback..i think, keadaan sekeliling sgtlah membahayakn utk org islam yg x berilmu pengetahuan, yg skdr beramal ikut org lain, ikut ape yg org praktik kt asrama..ikut ape yg org2 tua buat...w/out asking the relevance of what we are doing.. dan SAYA adelah : boleh dikatekn org seperti itu..i do what i think is right.. BUT most of the time , what i think IS RIGHT, is not that RIGHT..

i never knew bercouple itu haram..when i'm into the situation [of what people call 'bercouple'].. barulah sy tahu yg bercouple itu haram. So, if you were in my place ... what IS your decision NEXT??
keadaan sekeliling dah merubah ramai org utk memandang baik ape yg kite buat..smpai kdg2 kite lupe yg mana 1 halal n yg mana 1 hrm..sdgkn= yg HALAL itu NYATA, yg HARAM itu NYATA..

and my weakness IS: i am not good in conveying WHAT I KNOW to those who don't know. seriously, I AM NOT GOOD at it. utk mnyampaikn ilmu baru ini, kelebihan 'tabligh' itu xde dlm diri ni..i myself did mistakes, terase malu utk mnympaikn sesuatu yg kite sndiri buat..walaupun niat tu slalu ade dlm hati..

x nak ckp pnjg2 psl ni, cume berharap KEKUATAN itu dtg utk melangkah lebih berani, n semoga usaha yg akan dtg ini mdapat berkat n redha ALLAH s.w.t..AMIN...AMIN..AMIN...


2 wonderful voice(s):

andaiNYA... said...

yah..

i am do agree with most of ur statement...

n sorry for NOT being the ONE to
guide u to the right way..[sorry 4 not being a gud friend of yoursss]
(actually.. the same things happen to me.. kekuatan untuk tabligh..belum ada)

i am do agree with u...
that halal dan haram dah bercampur gaul..and kita dah terbiasa dengannya..

astaghfirullah..

whatever pn..LIFE MUST GO ON..

right?

someone said..
"buat salah itu biasa
mengakui kesalahn itu luar biasa.
jangan selesa duduk dalam salah itu selama lamanya...

i am do always keep that in mind..
n please tell me directly if i hve done something wrong ok?

so.. i dont know whats ur BIG things is..
BUT iam do hope..Allah akan mudahkan urusan Yah..

because i am do believe and yakin in what HE says in surah at talaq:2&3

"barangsiapa yang bertaqwa kepada ALLAh(buat apa yang Allah suruh,tinggal apa yg Allah larang), niscaya Dia akan membukakan jalan keluar baginya dan Dia akan memberikan rezeki dari arah Yang tidak disangka sangka,Dan barangsiapa bertawakkal kepada Allah,nescaya Allah akan mencukupkan keperluannya.sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan urusannya,Sungguh,Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi setiap sesuatu....

insya Allah,jika kita bertakwa kepada Allah..Dia akan menjadi PEMBELA bagi segala urusan kita...

lagi...
"boleh jadi kamu tidah menyukai sesuatu sedangkan itu baik bagimu,
dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu sedangkan itu tidak baik bagimu.Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui"[al baqarah:216]

till then..
thanks for a powerful post yah..
thanks Allah for giving u courage to write such as great views..
and again sorry...for everythings...

k
keep writting YAH=)
YES..dirimu begitu berharga!!!!

rafahiah said...

andainya,

terima kasih for the comment k :)
i appreciate it very much.

may i know who u are?hehe.

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