Wednesday 31 December 2008

Year after year, i hear myself say...

Selamat Tahun Baru, rasanya belum terlambat utk Tahun Baru Hijrah.. and hari ni Tahun Baru Masihi. Malangnya, sy tak set ape2 pun azam utk kedua2 tahun baru ni. hehe. Entah, before ni ade gak try2 pk, tp tidak kutemu jwpn. Mgkn sy dah berpuas hati dgn ape yg sy ade skrg kot?hehe. Tak lah. Semestinya tidak boleh berpuas hati. Hmmmm.. ade je perancangan utk beberapa hal, tp i dont think itu adelah AZAM. Sy pun xtau ape tu azam. Kalo target nk dpt pointer tinggi2 tu azam eh? Kalau itu adelah azam, maksudnye sy ade azam la tahun ni.Tapi tiap tahun sy nk dpt result best, so azam sy tiap tahun same la? Huhu.APe sy ckp keling ni. Stop2.

Takpe lah. Tapi tahun ni sy berdoa : smoga sy lebih tabah dgn dugaan, lebih rajin, lebih kuat makan, lebih pandai, lebih murah rezeki, lebih berdaya ingatan yg kuat,lebih mendapatkn pointer yg baik, lebih diredhai Allah, lebih kuat buat perkara2 sunat, lebih mudah buat LI atau study mlm2 (oooh,tidakk..), lebih putih berseri fair & lovely (=P), lebih SIHAT (ini plg penting), lebih jaga hati orang, dan byk lagi.. COMPARED to 2008. Amin..

Smlm, final day utk tahun lepas, ade class dr pagi smpai petang. Bygkn, third year, 48org je dtg, 47 org lagi tak dtg.ish3x.Mula2 tkejut sbb ada group yg ade 3 org je, tapi rupanya ade group yg lagi malang, 2org je. hehehe. Group siapekah? Korg ni, cian mereka berdua, discuss case tutorial berdua je. Mujurlah group sy ade 5org. So skills lab bole hbes cpat skit. Slalu2 lah tak dtg ye korang2, sy boleh balik cpt :P

Tapi class smlm (boleh jgk ckp "class tahun lepas") rase letih skit, sbb dah lama cuti agaknye. Ptg2 kne perah2 kan otak mcm perah lemon dlm coleslow, ehhh..susah skit kot dr perah lemon. Nasib baek dpt doctor baik, boleh balik awal. Doctor pun asyik ckp " see you next year", pdhl next week je.

Sy xde pape yg nk diupdate pun actually, just terase nk tulis sesuatu pada hari pertame tahun baru ni. Smlm tak tengok bunga api pun sbb malas nak bgn. Tp dgr la berdentam dentum di angkasa. mesti para syaitan suke sbb api melayang2 berwarna-warni di udara.huhu.

Tak tau nak fikir penutup ape utk post ni. Sy nk stop dulu. Ade learning issue yg menanti. Utk semua, Hepi newyear! :)

Saturday 27 December 2008

reading is the best medicine..:P

...Yah is currently re-reading her old novel.

title : "the five people you meet in heaven" from the author of Tuesday with Morrie, MITCH ALBOM~

" This is a story about a man named Eddie and it begins at the end, with Eddie dying in the sun. It might seem strange to start a story with an ending. But all endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time "

some parts that i like..

"Thirty four minutes to live.Eddie lifted the lap bar, gave each boy a sucking candy, retrieved his cane, then limped to the maintenance shop to cool down from the summer heat. Had he known his death was imminent, he might have gone somewhere else. Instead, he did what we all do. He went about his dull routine as if all the days in the world were still to come.."


" NO STORY SITS by itself. Sometimes stories meet at corners and sometimes they cover one another completely, like stones beneath a river..."

Please buy it yourself if you want to read the whole story :P

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P/s : I read this book only for fun. Most of the books i read were written by non-muslim authors, but they wrote them in the most acceptable ways. Jgn terpesong sudah. Pandai-pandai lah ye. hehe. I also want to recommend you guys to read "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho, because i think this is a beautiful novel :)


Thursday 25 December 2008

saje2..

friendster sy mengalami kerosakan sejak 2minggu.huhuhu. bosannye.. tak familiar ngan facebook, jd mls nk aktif kt situ. bukak je tp tak buat ape2..

hobi sy skrg adlh mencari free application utk my handphone, td jumpe byk ebook novel2 kt tenet so skrg sy buang mase bace e-novel dlm handphone.hihi.best2..tak yah beli kt kedai, pastu xpyh sesak2kan bilik dgn collection novel2..pastu takpayah susah2 fikir sape pinjam n tak pulangkan. Skrg sy sedang menunggu buku saye yg xtau ade kt sape yg sy xdpt2 lagi sejak berbulan2. Buku2 itu adalah : 1. P/s : i love you, 2. By the river piedra I sat down and wept. Hmmm 2buah je yg sy ingt,hehe. tapi kalo xdpt pun takpe lah, dah bace pun. Tp 2nd book tu dah lupe citer die, ingt nk bace blk tp dah takde plak. Nak beli balik mahal.huhu. ok lah takpe, skrg sy dah ade solution baru. Tapi sy agak berminat la ngan ebook2 kt tenet yg berbayar tu. hehe. tp x reti nak beli. lagipun mesti mahal kalo convert duit sini.skrg ni download novel2 yg free jek.hihihi. Skrg ni ade 6novel menunggu utk dibace. rasenye xboleh hbes dlm mase terdekat kot. coz kne study skit2 gak utk next sem. tunggu cuti panjang2 nanti baru boleh spend masa byk2 bace novel.

and skrg dah boleh lepaskan rabbit sesuke hati sbb pintu pgr dah ditutup ngan dawai. Thanx kepade org yg tolong membuatkn dan memasangkn dawai itu. Owh, lupe nak mention, rabbit oren hari tu hilang, most probably diambil org tym die tgh merayau2 kt luar, sbb usually dorang akn balik rumah sejauh mane pn drg pegi.huhu. tapi kitorg dah cari merate2 tp xjumpe pun, mmg sah la org curi. sampai hati org lain dah jage berbulan2 smpai die capai tahap tak vulnerable to death, org beli mknn tiap minggu utk rabbit, tp dorg senang2 je nak amek. huhuhu.dugaan2..

owh, tiap hari lak update blog. hehe. tapi post tak bermanfaat pun. takpelah, next time tulis yg bermanfaat lak.hihi.ok, bye.slm..=)


Wednesday 24 December 2008

Diam-diam si gunung berapi..

Dlm hidup ni, ade sorg insan yg selalu kecik kan hati saye. Mungkin sbb sy ni suke diam kot? Ok i admit it, sy mmg xbyk ckp(dgn org2 tertentu sahaje ye)..tp xsmestinye sy diam/senyum, boleh dijadikn alasan utk die ckp lepas kt sy.. Setahu sy, die pun jenis yg mudah terase..nk org lain jaga hati die, tp knape x boleh jaga hati org? sy ingat setiap ayat menyakitkn yg die pernah ckp kt saye. tp sy pn xfhm sgt dgn die ni. kdg2 die baik,so sy pn tak jadi nk terase hati/kecik hati dgn die. Setiap kali die baik dgn sy, sy pun trus cancelkan rase kecik hati tu dari dlm hati sy.nk buang jauh2. Tapi pade lain mase, die buat lagi. huhuhu. sebenarnye die ni tak la rapat dgn sy, semestinya kitorang bukan serumah atau sekosan kerane serumah dan sekosan sy sume tahu menjaga hati sy.hmmmm..

sy cume xtahu cmane nak layan org mcm ni. Buang jauh2 dari hidup pun xboleh jugak, sbb kite semua memerlukan antara 1 sama lain. Nk fikir byk2 pun x boleh jugak sbb kalau die buat lagi, sy terase dan terase dan terase. Ntahla. kesimpulannya kami mmg tak serupa. Sbenarnya die tak penting pun dlm hidup sy, tp kdg2 die ckp baik2 dgn sy,buat sy rase bersalah je.huhuhu.mungkin die tak berniat pun nk kecik kan hati sy, tapi bile die ckp mcm tu, secara langsung, die menzahirkan ape yg die rase tentang sy. X de lah ter'kesan' sgt pn dgn ape yg die ckp, BECAUSE I KNOW I AM A STRONG GIRL. Yg terkesan tu adelah bile die sendiri cepat terase dgn orang lain. Menyebabkab sy rase..hmmm..'tahu terase, hati org lain tak jage'.

Abaikan je lah kn. Tapi sy tetap nk tulis kt sni supaye menjadi kenangan dlm hidup sy yg sy pernah bertemu dgn insan ni.Saya maafkan die, tapi harap kemaafan ni berbaloi. Tak kisah lah die tahu atau tak ape yg sy ckp ni. Sy tak kisah. Yg penting sy tahu ade 1orang yg memahami and pernah bersame2 sy mendengar ape yg org tu ckp yg sememangnya patut utk seseorng manusia biasa terase bile org lain ckp mcm tu kt kite. (sorry la ayat berbelit2 sikit tapi boleh fhm kn).

Pengajaran utk sy n org2 yg membace, jaga lah hati org d sekeliling kite dgn menjage percakapan kite. Tak semestinya org tak marah bermaksud orang menerima dgn senang hati ape yg kite ckp. Ade orang diam2 gunung berapi jugak. Meletus bila sampai waktunya. Dan meletus bukn sembarangan meletus..ok..that's all. no hard feeling k..bye2 (^_^)

Monday 22 December 2008

the NEGATIVE part of me..

i was reading one of my friends' post, which makes me feel a lil bit sad. huhu. i have always been the one who thinks too much about small THINGS..(i guess i WILL ALWAYS BE..). I was the one to decide everything that have been decided, now why should i care thinking of its rationality? "Let bygones be bygones" ~( i still remember those words blurted out by one of my doctors during my OSCE exam,in the most-sarcastic-ever tune, which i think was very effective in letting someone down. Lucky i AM (which means ALWAYS) not that kind of girl HE thinks. I AM the coolest person on earth if only he would like to know that..huhu)

When people say something that would indirectly mean = i AM doing things they don't like to do, or staying in places they don't like to stay (i mean = jatinangor, in case you think im talking about my lovely hometown in malaysia) it makes me sad. WHY yah? (i mean, why rafahiah??) I am a strong girl, i always know that. But when it comes to the NEGATIVE PART of me, it's hard to find the "stronger part" anymore.

I need inspiration, i need motivation. (BUT I KNOW I ALWAYS HAVE THEM with me).huhuhuhu.Should i ask for more? (YOU KNOW THE ANSWER : No, you should be grateful for everything HE gave you). I don't know how other people would act if they were in my place.. BUT the only thing i know, everyone has his/her own problem.. their problems may be worse than mine. I always try to put myself in other people's problem, and most of the time, it makes me feel nervous.What if i get into things they have been into? Yah, you should be thankful, that's all.


I'm sorry to bring out 'this kind of me'. People will never get the point, if i were in this negative part.. so much the same.. and will never come out with a conclusion. IT'S NOT A PROBLEM, IT IS JUST ME BEING SO NEGATIVE, THINKING TOO MUCH about the SMALLEST THING in the WORLD..huuuu..

p/s: I'M NOT AFRAID of BEING HERE~sekian.

Friday 12 December 2008

rabbit....again =)

slm.. stop jap study phop, nk tulis blog plak.bg sy masa relax 15minit ok :p Dah 2hari lbh internet connection padma ni lembap.entah knape. tp hari ni dah ok balik. Tak tau lah sbnrnya ada internet dpn mata ni bagus atau tak, sbb kalo xde intenet rasenye lebih mudah nk study,hikhik. kalo tak, asyik nk surf tenet je, bukak fs, tgk2 gmbr org, bc blog org even tak kenal ngan org tu.pastu sakit kepala coz lame sgt mghadap laptop. tp nk study phop kne bace slide, kalo x bace slide,nk bace kt mane? (alasan =P) so nak tak nak kne bukak laptop jgk :P and sbb dah byr mhl utk tenet tpakse la gune kn,hihi.

smlm exam DMS dah selesai. ALhamdulillah sbb dah selesai.hehe. (bukn sbb dpt jwb =P) Hmm, overall paper tu, xnak comment panjang2. Utk org yg study n hafal sebijik2 thanatology, radiology n tumor2 yg asyik berulang2 soalan tu je, for sure dpt jwb smbil tersenyum.hehe. tp bg sy yg bace ntah brape kali tp sgtla mls nk menghafal, fhm2 je la cmane keadaan sy semase mjwb soalan tu.hihi. Sy xtau ape mslh sy smpai sgt mls nk menghafal. Org kate bace kalo fhm dah cukup kn, tp sy rase fhm je x ckup gak, sy bace fhm je, tp x ingt pon.hehe. Abaikan.. =P

Actually arini sy nk upload gmbr rabbit sy yg dah besar. Minggu dpn dah nk masuk 2bulan sy beli rabbit tu. Kirenye umur dorang dah 3bulan la. 2 bulan lagi nak puberty. Hopefully dpt jaga dorg tanpa sebarang unknown communicable disease yg org slalu ckp tu. Risau jgk. Kalo bole pas die puberty tu nak die cpt2 pregnant n nk die beranak byk2.hihihi. (semoga ini bukanlah angan2..huhu).. Esok sy beli rumah baru utk rabbit ni, sbb saiz dorg pun dah besar, xmuat dah rumah lame ni, sian dorg. And hari ni bertambah 1 lagi rabbit, sbb naqi mintak tlg jaga rabbit die yg gemok n kuat makan tu.hikhik. Rabbit die betina, Org ckp rabbit betina x suka rabbit lain kaco daerah die. Td mula2 my rabbit betina mcm merajuk xnak mkn sbb ada rabbit baru kaco die nk duduk ngan rabbit jantan. Tp lame2 ok, dorang dah boleh duduk bertiga. Best2.

Doakan ye rabbit2 kitorg ni hidup lame. Stakat ni ada yg mati kne hujan n kne gigit kucing..huhuhuuuuu (T_T)..maafkan kami rabbit2 yg tak berdosa.(sedih la pulak..dah la tgh dgr lagu slow =p)

Ok la, dah 15minit, nk smbung study. Kt bwh ni sy upload gmbr2 rabbit, latest edition.hihi. Nanti dah besar umur 5bulan (insyaALLah) sy upload lg.


rabbit takde name.






spesies kuat makan - naqi's



rabbit betina yg merajuk td



ni satu2 nya jantan yg tinggal



di sinilah rabbit2 ni berteduh



hihi. badan die dah pnjg. dulu 1/3 je.




this one paling naughty & manja

ok, till then, bye2 (^_^)


Sunday 7 December 2008

Muallaf...


"MEMANG patut tak lepas di Malaysia," komen spontan sebaik kami selesai menonton filem Muallaf di The Picturehouse, The Cathay Singapura semasa hari pertama tayangannya pada 29 November lalu.

Muallaf, filem kelima arahan Yasmin Ahmad belum ditayangkan di negara ini tetapi sudah dapat ditonton di negara itu.

Sehingga hari ini, filem arahan pengarah kontroversi itu terus tersadai di Lembaga Penapisan Filem (LPF) atau dalam bahasa halus tidak diluluskan tayangannya di Malaysia.


Ini kerana Yasmin dikatakan enggan mematuhi arahan badan penapis itu supaya memotong beberapa adegan penting yang boleh mencetuskan sensitiviti agama di negara ini.

Peliknya, sambutan di Singapura begitu memberangsangkan apabila tayangan hari pertama penuh sesak sehinggakan penonton perlu membuat tempahan awal bagi mengelak kehabisan tiket.

Barangkali bagi penonton di sana, tarikan utama Muallaf adalah kerana hampir keseluruhan dialog dalam filem itu menggunakan bahasa Inggeris.

Sepanjang menonton filem ini, kami mencari kewajaran di mana letaknya kekhilafan Muallaf hingga dihukum sedemikian.


Jawapannya ditemui cukup mudah. Menerusi Muallaf, Yasmin semakin berani menongkah arus untuk mengangkat isu agama sebagai lambang perjuangannya dalam bidang seni.

Persoalan itu timbul berikutan sejauh mana sensitiviti agama diusik Yasmin yang memang terkenal dengan filem-filemnya yang melangkau budaya masyarakat Melayu seperti Sepet dan Gubra.

Bukan tidak pernah persoalan mengenai toleransi serta keterbukaan antara agama ditonjolkan di layar perak seperti Ridley Scott dalam filem berjudul Kingdom of Heaven. Nilai kemanusiaan merupakan keutamaan pengarah British itu berbanding perjuangan agama kerana kesudahannya, manusia sendiri yang akan mencorakkan perjalanan agama yang didukung mereka.

Dengan mengambil situasi peperangan yang mana berlaku konflik antara agama, Scott meletakkan harapan kepada kedamaian bersandarkan rasa toleransi manusia.

Menarik mengenai Muallaf pula, Yasmin tidak mengambil latar peperangan ataupun konflik yang sedia menjadi kelaziman untuk sesebuah filem yang ingin menegakkan perjuangan.


Pengarah kelahiran Muar, Johor itu memilih sebuah bandar raya Ipoh yang tenang dan kaya dengan keindahan landskap bangunan kolonial.

Dia juga memaparkan sikap masyarakat yang langsung tiada berbalah semata-mata mencintai kedamaian.

Dalam Muallaf, Yasmin menempatkan masyarakat berbilang agama dapat hidup dengan saling toleransi. Suntikan realiti yang diberikan pastinya memberi kesan namun persoalan samar yang diwujudkan terlalu halus sehingga mengguris hati dan sensiviti masyarakat khususnya Islam yang menjadi majoriti di negara ini.


Hampir semua watak utama di dalam filem Muallaf dilihat mahu mencari serta menegakkan kebenaran menerusi agama masing-masing.

Watak Rohana yang dibawa Sharifah Amani dan watak Rohani yang dibawa adiknya, Sharifah Alesha, masing-masing ingin mencari kebenaran daripada agama Islam yang menjadi junjungan mereka.

Mereka berpegang teguh terhadap agama Islam namun mereka juga mengeluh kerana jiwa mereka kosong dalam pengisiannya. Mereka berdua bagaimanapun dapat bersahabat baik dengan watak-watak lain dalam cerita ini yang berbeza agama terutamanya Brian dan Brother Anthony (paderi).


Perbincangan agama yang dirungkai mungkin terlalu ironi sehingga Rohani yang masih bersekolah dapat berhujah dengan menghafal ayah-ayat dari kitab Injil.

Yasmin memang menyusun baik kisahnya namun kewajaran daripada adegan serta dialog yang dipaparkan pasti menimbulkan kekeliruan bagi mereka yang cetek mengenai agama.

Hala tuju dari filem Muallaf ini pasti bertunjangkan kepada watak Brian yang dilihat sebagai insan yang paling kosong dalam jiwanya. Dia yang pernah mengalami trauma sewaktu kecil adalah titik tumpu kepada perjalanan filem ini.

Kecenderungannya adalah pada agama Islam namun dia datang daripada keluarga yang berpegang kuat kepada agama Kristian Katolik.

Keindahan Islam yang dilihat Brian, begitupun tidak datang terlalu menjurus kepada bentuk agama Islam itu sendiri, namun lebih kepada nilai kemanusiaan daripada Rohana dan Rohani.

Tidak dapat dinafikan, Yasmin telah memberikan hasil karya seninya yang terbaik menerusi Muallaf. Susunan plot filemnya itu seperti biasa adalah terlalu tenang berbanding sensitiviti ataupun kisah tersirat yang cuba dibawanya. Muallaf tidak boleh dikatakan sebagai filem dramatik, kerana unsur- unsur drama telah disunting dengan pantas.


Malah adegan Sharifah Amani yang terpaksa dibotakkan rambutnya hingga menjadi bahan sensasi pihak media boleh dikatakan tidak lebih daripada subplot semata-mata dan langsung tidak memberi kesan yang besar terhadap Muallaf.

Kebijaksanaan Yasmin adalah kepada ketelitian terhadap perkara-perkara yang orang sentiasa terlepas pandang dan kelebihan itu dimanfaatkan sepenuhnya dalam Muallaf. Malah setiap watak walaupun berperanan kecil tetap memberi kesan kepada perjalanan cerita Muallaf.

Dialog-dialog yang diberikan adalah tajam dan mampu memberi kesan di atas mesejnya yang tersurat dan tersirat. Mengambil daripada realiti dengan melontarkan pandangan mengenainya, Muallaf hanya memberikan persoalan bersama jawapan yang masih belum selesai.

Dari segi kemanusiaan, Muallaf adalah sebuah filem yang cukup indah kerana penuh nilai kasih sayang dan rasa saling memahami. Keinsafan adalah pada setiap manusia mengenai perkara ini, namun dukungan liberal yang terlampau halus dan mendalam inilah yang mengakibatkan garis terang yang memisahkan setiap agama bagai terkabur.


Sebagai seorang muslim, Yasmin gagal memberi keindahan sebenar mengenai wajah agama Islam yang menuntut jalan yang lurus. Imej Muallaf yang dilontarkannya adalah terlalu mengecewakan. Ini kerana terlalu banyak perkara yang diambil ringan maksudnya berbanding kesannya terhadap agama Islam.

Sewajarnya difahami, subjek agama yang diangkat dalam Muallaf tidak sepatutnya diletakkan dalam medium seni yang tidak pernah begitu jelas justifikasinya.


Semua pengarah melakukan kesilapan dan kesilapan Yasmin cuba menunjukkan semua agama menyuruh melakukan kebaikan dan dia mahu menyamaratakan semua agama untuk kelangsungan hidup. Realitinya, Islam tidak pernah sama dengan mana-mana agama!

Wednesday 3 December 2008

Sacrifice ~

We come to the last month of the Muslim calendar, Zulhijjah. The month in which the 'korban festival' falls. We agreed to celebrate it on 8th december, (and as usual, the muslims in ibnu sina will be celebrating it one day earlier.For that reason, my friends and i have to go searching for the other mosque, and i am not sure yet where it will be..huhuhu..harap tak melepas solat raya only because tak jumpa masjid~mcm tahun lepas.haha). One occasion for sure will be attended is Qurban Demi CInta at alpina. I don't sacrifice anything la tapi..huhuhu..(T_T)

I always wanted to have the experiences of celebrating hari raya in places other than mine. But as far as i remember, since the 1st year of my stay in Indonesia (which is the only 'other country' i've been to), every majlis that i attended was organized by malaysian students. No differences at all. Malaysia-Indonesia ~ kita serumpun.Tapi lucky lah, we still can have it celebrated, kalau takde langsung, lagi sedih..

Dating back to the history of Islam, we all know what or which stories that have to be remembered.

i) The willingness of Nabi Ibrahim to sacrifice his beloved Nabi Ismail,to show how obedient he ALWAYS IS to the khaliq.

ii) The day when muslim pilgrims from all over the world end their journey to Mecca.

Now, let's share our care to the poor.

1. Verily, We have granted you (Muhammad,peace be upon him) Al-Kauthar (a river in Paradise);

2. Therefore turn in prayer to your Lord and sacrifice (to Him only).

3. For he who makes you angry (Muhammad pbuh), - he will be cut off (from every good thing in this world and in the Hereafter)"

(SURAH AL-KAUTSAR : AL QURAN)


I have nothing much to say now. I hope this coming aiduladha will bring at least a new 'something' in myself and all of us. Unluckily, final exam is just around the corner ~ need to focus on studying and memorizing medical literatures.huhu.

Slm.



Sunday 30 November 2008

Tidak sedar diri...

"Hak keistimewaan melayu" dipertikaikan oleh orang-orang yang tidak sedar diri. Setinggi mana pun kedudukan seseorang, saya sebagai seorang 'kanak-kanak' pun berani menentang kalau ada orang-orang yang mempertikaikan. Walaupun melayu saya hanya 50%, tetapi disebabkan saya belajar dan memahami sejarah Tanah Melayu dan sejarah Malaysia, saya tahu mana yang betul dan mana yang salah.

Bersyukurlah wahai bangsa-bangsa yang diberi kedudukan dan keselesaan oleh bangsa-bangsa yang berhati mulia.

( Kalau setakat belajar Sejarah sebab nak lulus PMR,SPM...baik tak payah. Nak jadi ahli politik sebab nak jatuhkan bangsa lain - baik letak jawatan. Memang dah letak jawatan pun,hikhik :p )


TAKKAN MELAYU HILANG DI DUNIA ~






Friday 28 November 2008

when i have nothing to do, besides BELAJAR...

( i should change the title : when i have to do nothing, except BELAJAR )

bosan~

i feel like going somewhere..
but as always,
i don't know where to go...

Jatinangor oh jatinangor...



Wednesday 26 November 2008

A picture is worth a thousand words~



Wednesday 12 November 2008

PARA PENCARI TUHAN...

3 weeks to final, i'm too lazy to write anything. I just want to say this to all my friends,it's good to advise someone,but please don't judge or underestimate. The disease of "ghibah" has been injected to us.Why?Because some of us feel that we are better than the others.Remember,in a person, half of it can be good,and half can be bad. Siapa kita untuk menilai orang? Mungkin saya berfikiran sempit di sini, but I just want to deliver ONE message here : Kita semua adalah PARA PENCARI TUHAN, and in the journey to seek the truth, we all did mistakes. It is our duty to correct people who did mistakes, but it is NEVER our duty to "ckp2 buruk" tentang mereka.

Ok,i give an analogy:

We are good in this part (say ilmu A), but in our daily life as a student (ilmu B), we come late to class, never do learning issue properly,main game dikala bosan, tidur lepas subuh, tidur lewat pagi. (sedangkan, bosan itu sepatutnya tidak ada dlm istilah hidup org islam.Allah beri kita masa hidup, yang sepatutnya digunakan untuk berzikir mensyukuri nikmat hidup yang Allah berikan) (Dan, tidur jam 2-3pagi, yang sepatutnya digunakan untuk bangun awal pagi untuk qiamullail)

On the other side,

The ones who are not so good in this ilmu A, become really good in ilmu B.

I'm not intended to compare, but since some of us become so proud of themselvess, it attracts me to write.

And it is Allah Who rewards good actions and Who is the source of infinite justice.

"Those who produce a good action will receive ten like it. But those who produce a bad action will only be repaid with its equivalent and they will not be wronged" (Surat al-An'am: 160)

Sekarang mari kita sama2 renungkan, sempena final exam yang akan datang tak lama lagi.

"Kenapa kita,especially student, kalau dah dekat nak exam, bukan main lagi bertungkus lumus untuk study, kita beli buku past year, bertukar2 pendapat tentang soalan dan jawapan, tidur lewat malam & bangun awal pagi untuk study, berusaha dapatkan pointer setinggi mungkin"

tapi...

"Kenapa kita,especially muslim,sepanjang masa exam (refers to hari kematian/akhirat yang bila2 masa boleh dtg),bukan main lagi relax, tak beli buku agama untuk mendalami ilmu menjelang exam itu, takde nak bangun awal pagi utk qiam (kdg2 exam MDE lagi ramai org buat qiam), tidur lepas subuh, and kurang berusaha untuk dapatkan pointer (pahala) sebanyak mungkin"


i don't know the answer, it happens to me also. And even if i have the answer, it only works for a short period of time.Astaghfirullah.


Allah will judge with truth;and those you call upon apart from Him will not judge with anything at all.It is Allah who is the All-Hearing,
the All-Seeing.
(Surat al- Ghafir: 20)


On the Day Allah raises up all of them together, He will inform them of what they did. Allah has recorded it while they have forgotten it. Allah is a Witness of all things.
(Surat al-Mujadala: 6)



p/s : i hope by writing this, it won't cause anyone (who are obviously not good enough) to feel safe. As i said,we are the "para pencari tuhan"..it is our responsibility to improve ourselves. Of course we have to continue searching to find the truth.

Friday 7 November 2008

exam dah habes..yeaa yeaa..

yeaa yeaa..hepi2..

Hari ni nak tulis ape2 saje yg terlintas dlm fkiran boleh tak. i want to reduce, to eradicate, to eliminate (sume la yg ade dlm PHOP tu) those stressful agents yg telah masuk dlm my body system 2,3 hari ni.huhu.sori la kalau terpanjang skit post kali ni..compared ngan my previous posts yg smemgnya slalu pnjg..kalo mls nk bace, dialu2kan utk close window or tab ini skrg.hehe.nanti bosan menyesal. jgn ckp xde org ingtkn ok? :p


1st thing in my mind now is : dah lame x jumpe kakak n amer. huhuhu... i miss them. i miss my family. sume org pun rindu their family i know. tp xpelah bg chance sy ckp psl kerinduan sy jap eh.huuuu..rindu jalan2 ngan my family. perasaan ni actually tak slalu dtg, i don't know why.sbb dah biasa? mgkn jgk. since i was in primary 6, k.whdh dah start masuk asrama. so tym kecik2 dah kurg spend mase with her. tapi, bcoz she's only 1 year older than me, n kt KK tu cume ade 1 SBP je, which is Sekolah Menengah Sains Sabah,sy pn masuk sekolah yg same.hehehe. so kami jd dekat semule. (eleh,pdhl rumah dekat je xsmpai 2minit pn naik kete dr asrama tu :P).. tp, sy jd jauh dgn family pulak. hmmmm. pastu every 2years adik2 pun masuk asrama. All of them. makin jauh la kami skeluarga.


Best ke tgl asrama? everyone has his/her own opinion bout dis. Since i was in KTT n until now in UNPAD,ramai gak la org bg pendapat psl duduk asrama n sekolah harian. I think, both have their own advantages n disadvantages. terpulangla situation mane org tu duduk, if kte berjaye skrg dgn ape yg kte lalui dulu, then x payah la nk buruk2 kn ape yg kte x lalui dulu. Org duduk asrama, if dah bjaye hasil dr duduk asrama, jgnla buruk2kn org x duduk asrama. same goes to org yg x duduk asrama. OK?
X sume org duduk asrama baik. begitu juge org x duduk asrama. Pape pn, sume brgntung pd diri sendiri ok?


Ok berbalik kpade tajuk asal. Rindu family.Dah 1thun 2buln x jumpe kakak n amer. Plg last raya last year ( ry last year ok,bukn last raya ). tp, tym raya last yr tu pn, raya ke4 amer dah blk KL, n raya ke6, i hv to go back to bandung, n kakak kne blk kuantan xlame pastu. huhu. n b4 jumpe raya thun lepas tu, ktorg dah 2thun jgk xjumpe. Jmpe pn 1,2kali je tu pn kt LCCT sbb before blk bandung, sy kne naik flite KK-KL. itupun nsib baik smpat jmpa skjp. Skrg? Skrg air asia dah ade flite direct Jakarta-KK. So probability utk jumpe kakak n amer sgtlah kecik. Mgkn 0 drpd 1.uhuhhu.


Mgkn ni problm me n my family utk berkumpul. Org lain ade problm lain x dpt kmpul. Tp rasenye basically sume org same.SUme kne pegi belajar jauh2, n keje jauh2.so peluang utk jumpe tu xde. My family live in Sabah. (waaa..rindu Sabah), tp my siblings, habes je SPM, smbung study kt semenanjung. N tiket balik bukn mcm beli tiket bas. Kalo skrg kwn2 slalu mengadu tiket blk mahal. Sy dah rase sume tu since i was in KTT. Waktu tu umur sy bru 17 nk masuk 18. Tp sy dah duduk jauh sgt dr family.n nk balik kne ade duit rm500 utk beli tiket je. Btambah sedih bile housemates kt KTT always balik weekend, sometimes kne duduk sorg2 kt rumah time weekend. I still remember ade bbrape kali jgk duduk sorg2 kt umah tym cuti hari raya haji.sgt sedih perasaan tu, tp kne lalui jugak. Sy try fikir about my sis, die pun sorg2 jugak. Kalau die boleh, knape sy x boleh (tp time tu sy slalu ckp, ala akak ade boyfren, xpela.haha)..


N pernah sekali waktu 1st time puasa kt KTT, sy sgt ingt hari itu,sume org balik rumah, tinggl lah sy sorg2 dlm rumah. Sape yg tau KTT,tau la kn, kalo weekend sunyi semacam ( i miss that feeling actually)..jauh dari tmpt lain. Waktu tu sy sedih sgt coz bukak puasa sorg2.huhuhu. sume org amek peluang balik rumah sbb itu 1st week puase kalo x silap. Waktu makan tu sy nangis sorg2..waaa.. x boleh bygkn perasaan tym tu. Sy kecik lg tym tu,bru 18thn.hehehe.(kecik la tu)


N skrg, problem: jrg dpt cuti. Ktorg xde cuti mcm U kt mesia. cuti berbulan2. Kalo cuti seminggu, xtau nape, sy rase mcm membazir je blk. Sbb skjp sgt. Org lain mgkn x fikir mcm tu. Tp inilah saya. Sy dibesarkn dgn pemikiran mcm ni. Sy rase berat hati nk balik kalau cuti sminggu je. menyusahkn my parents. Ayah n mak bg je balik kalau mmg anak2 nk balik. Tp x rase membazir ke? Kalau balik, rm1000 msti hbis utk beli tiket je, tu belum masuk kalo kne tukar tiket sbb FK asyik tuka jadual. Pastu nak balik, kne la beli brg2 pape utk family kt msia kn. Walaupn mak n ayah slalu pesan jgn beli pape, sbb kt sane pun ade.haha.tp rase x best if balik tgn kosong. bukn slalu balik. Tp sedihnye, if sy balik cuti sebulan pn, sy xdpt jumpe sume adik beradik pn. Kalo nk jumpe akak, sy kne beli tiket pg Kuantan. Nk jumpe adik,kne beli tiket pegi KL. huhuhu.


(Ape la yah ni,cite bnde2 ni,bosan la) ---> kalo bosan, sy dah pesan utk close saje window ni ok?hehe.ingt kn?


Sbnrnye sy pun xtau ape yg sy nk ckp skrg. Tp sbb sy rindu family, sume ni sy ckp.I hope, Suatu masa nanti, ade la 1 hari yg we all can spend our time together.pegi picnic ke mcm mase tym kecik2 dulu,bole dikatekn stiap minggu ayah n mak bwk mandi n mkn2 kt pantai. Tuka2 pantai, kdg2 pantai Tg.Aru, kdg2 pntai Karambunai, pntai Dalit, tp mostly Tg.Aru la,sbb situ dkt dgn rumah.Tp since kakak masuk asrama, rutin tu dah start ditinggalkn. I still remember, waktu drjh6 jgk,
ajak ayah pegi pantai sbb rase mcm dah lame x pegi pntai, tp ayah jwb, nanti la tgu k.wahidah balik sbb tkot k.wdh rase xbest kte pegi w/out her.So sy pun ok je. Tp since hari tu, ktorg dah xpernah pegi picnic mcm dulu. Sbb tahun brganti tahun, sume dah duduk asrama.Huhu.(utk yg tak duduk asrama, u see, in slh satu disadvantage tinggal asrama)

Im worried about my brother now.His exam results.I know it's quite hard for him to be where he is now.I hope he can think n do the best for his future.I hope he won't feel bad about himself. I hope there's always someone who can be his best friend, and his teacher.


Im worried about my sister too. My sis wahidah. I know she can handle herself very well,but since “sesuatu telah trjadi” to her recently, and i've never been there for her to be a good listener ( but i know she has bestfriends to handle dat), n she lose weight too fast i think. Stress or diet xtau la. Tp if i ask her, of course la d answer is “DIET”. Tp dari dulu pn diet gak, xkan skrg tym ade problem baru kurus mcm ni.huhu.To all my sis' close frens, do take care of her k :)


And,most of all, I'm worried about myself too. Cmane nk tmbh berat bdn ni?haha. Problem yg xpernah hbes2 dr dulu. Ok2, xpyhla ckp psl ni kt sni, sy tau ape yg korg nk suruh sy buat. Mkn byk skit, exercise, mkn appeton weight gain, mkn kerap, mkn appeton lysiene,etc. Sy rase sy dah pernah buat sume ( tp kbykn sekerat jalan )..nanti2 la sy buat lagi ok? Skrg ni sy nk mkn puas2, tp xbole mkn puas2 jgk,sbb kt sini mknn limited.N duit kne control jugak ok? Xkan Mara masuk rm800 sebuln sume nk hbeskn?rakyat2 malaysia, jgn risau kerane wang yg anda bg utk sy blajar ni, sy dah try simpan baik2 utk mase dpn. Jgn risau sy x beli handphone baru gune duit mara. Sy x beli camera gune duit mara. Sy gune beli mknn je.hehe :p Sy dah 1tahun lebih x shopping tau.


Ok la, walaupn byk lagi yg sy nak merapu, tp sy stop sni dulu la. Tgahari ni sy nak belajar main dota:P believe me?ok bye2.


Saturday 1 November 2008

pagi ahad yg hening - in my room

slm...

hmm..i just read this n feel lyk sharing it here.. tetibe terfikir psl org yg meninggal 4hr lpas bcoz kne electrik shock kt jln sukawening tu..huhu..ngerinye..takott..w.pn xkenal dgn org tu,tp rase 'sumthing' tu tetap ade..apelagi bila bnde tu jadi dpn ramai org yg tgh lalu lalang..huhu..~

Dialah Yang Awal dan Yang Akhir Yang Zhahir dan Yang Bathin; dan Dia Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu. Dialah yang menciptakan langit dan bumi dalam enam masa: Kemudian Dia bersemayam di atas ´arsy Dia mengetahui apa yang masuk ke dalam bumi dan apa yang keluar daripadanya dan apa yang turun dari langit dan apa yang naik kepada-Nya. Dan Dia bersama kamu di mama saja kamu berada. Dan Allah Maha Melihat apa yang kamu kerjakan.

(QS. Al Hadiid, 57 : 3-4)



هَبْ لِي حُكْمًا وَأَلْحِقْنِي بِالصَّالِحِينَ

"Ya Tuhanku, berikanlah kepadaku hikmah dan masukkanlah aku ke dalam golongan orang-orang yang saleh” (Q.S. Asy-Sy’araa: 83)



اللهم اجعل خير عمري أخره و خير عملي خواتيمه و خير أيامي يوم لقائك

Ya Allah jadikanlah sebaik-baik umurku pada ujungnya dan sebaik-baik amalku pada akhir hayatku, dan (jadikanlah) sebaik-baik hariku yaitu hari ketika aku bertemu dengan-Mu (di hari kiamat)” (H.R. Ibnus Sunny)


اللهم اختم لنا بحسـن الخاتمة ولا تختم علينا بسـوء الخاتمة

Ya Allah, akhirilah hidup kami dengan husnul-khatimah (akhir yang baik), dan jangan Kau akhiri hidup kami dengan suu-ul-khatimah (akhir yang buruwa’alaikk)”


Amin...amin..amin ya rabbal 'alamin..


~~ hmmm..luse exam tp CRP xhbes study lg.huhu..pagi td mimpi rabbit, pastu sbb risau rabbit tu mati,cpt2 bgn pagi2 buta kul 3pagi pegi check condition dorg..lega bila tgk dorg still bernyawa.. xsmpai hati tgk sape2 mati lg,even rabbit yg x tau pape tu.huhu.. teringt tym raye hari tu tym hamster naqi mati..xleh imagine how i feel..xnak ingt balik, bertmbh xleh thn if kte yg jd org yg sbbkn sesuatu/seseorg tu mati..kan?


ok la,xmau la nmpk mcm asyik pk psl rabbit je kn, skrg kne membanyakkn study ok? xleh post byk2 lg arini sbb kne spend the rest if d day to read crp n memorize every single rumus yg dah lame dtingglkn tym spm / alevel dlu.. btw, kenapekah ingin mjadi doctor juge perlu belajar statistics?? research design boleh trime lg,statistics itu knape? nsb baik la i love statistics, tp i tetap don't love things dat i don't know the purpose why i'm doing it..hmmmm..



Wednesday 29 October 2008

pendek je entry ni..

hari ni hari plg mengantok..class straight xde rehat,huuhuhu..

xtau nape skrg ramai lak buat post bkenaan bnde yg i just mention in my previous post. kebetulan pulak. tapi ade la 1 post ni yg ramai gak org x berkenan,termasuklah sy. mmg x boleh dnafikn. sy ade pndgn sendiri trhadap itu,tetapi mls la nk ckp byk. bole je nk ckp byk sbb ini kn space saye sukehati bole ckp psl ape yg sy rase. tp pape pn, sy rase ramai bersetuju dgn sy,hoho.ketahuilah anda bhw post anda itu hanyalah membuatkn kami rase bhawa anda hanya berprasaan merasekn anda itu sgt baik n perfect.mgkn anda x sebegitu perasan,tp cara anda menulis menggambarkn anda sebegitu, jd i suggest u to improve your way of writing,so people will respect u w/out even reading ur post.

i better study for next week, bye2.

yah: hanya mampu tersenyum..ish3x

Sunday 26 October 2008

fasa mengembalikan mood (^_^)

lamanya x menulis..mood utk menulis kdg2 je dtg,arini pon xde bnde nk tulis tp sbb tkot tertido awl sgt mcm smlm, so pakse jugak diri utk menshare sumthing dlm diari intenet ni,hehehe.

my life as a student : x busy lgsg + baru siap buat case review utk angina von ludwig, sgt simple coz name pon review,hehe. tghari td study crp sket2, mlm ni mcm bese : mlm yg xpernah diisi dgn study ~ walopun ade ketika x ngntok tp tetap xnak study sbb ntah knape mlm2 mmg xnak study. tido jugak sprti biase, kalo x direct pas isyak, kul9 wajib tutup lampu. fiza n nas msti da fhm sgt da, hehehe. kalo x tutup2 gak lmpu tym kul9 tu, meaning, xtutup2 la smpai pagi coz dah tertido n xsmpat nk tutup lampu.huahua :P

my life as a student yg bercuti : khamis aritu buat ape ek,owwhhh, aritu bgn awl2 pagi nk g FK coz nk amek rumput carpet lawa yg org keje kt fk tu buang coz dorg amek yg lawa2 je, yg xlawa skit dorg buang..tp actually yg x lawa bg dorg tu still lawa gak, membazir btul kn org FK ni, huhu. tp usaha ktorg tgendala sbb awal2 pg tu da ade pakcik satpam jaga kt A5 tu, x sporting la pak guard tu, org nk amek yg org projek tu x pakai je, tu pn die kate x boleh amek..huhu..pdhl smlm mmg org projek tu kate x gune da rumput tu..huhuhu..x sporting..xsporting..tpakse la pegi cibiru beli rumput.. skrg kt blakg rumh da ade rmput karpet utk rabbit,best2!!

jumaat : g dinner hari raya anjurn kedutaan besar malaysia d indonesia : venue - hotel puri khatulistiwa, hmmm..tumpuan adelah mknn sahaje kerana tujuan sy pergi pun memanglah semate2 utk mkn.mknn sedap so pulang senang hati,hehe. kalo xsedap,next year try dtg lagi,mgkn next year sedap skit.

sabtu: hmmmm..smlm buat ape ek, x ingt..recall2..hmmmm..waaaa..nape x ingt ni..huhuhu...jap recall lg..hmmm.ooowhhh, smlm xde buat pape,sbb tu x ingt sgt.. main2 ngan rabbit, study, pegi psr cikuda, tu je.

ahad : pegi paun mkn nasi kuning n ikan bkr ( ni pun nk mention :p) n beli pellet utk rabbit, owh td tgk rabbit kt paun yg da berumur 6buln..waaa..sgt2 comel, berbulu tebal..hope2 my rabbit ni nanti akn jd comel n gebu mcm tu, xsbar nk tgu 5buln lg.. msti jap je kn waktu berlalu.. best la ade rabbit, bosan2 study or bosan2 xstudy, bole main2 ngan rabbit..dorg tu comel2..lgkh kecik2, pastu kuat mkn plak tu..bulu dorg pn tebal..sbb rabbit aritu mati (sbb kucing jht), last wik beli lg secouple rabbit. naqi pn beli secouple rabbit sbb ktorg dah addicted dgn rabbit, pg td fahmi sheikh pn beli secouple rabbit so skrg combine sume skali ade 6ekor rabbit, hope sume rabbit2 ni hidup lame smpai beranak pinak, so nanti bole buat bisnes rabbit,hoho;P tak pun, buat barbeque rabbit =P tp sape la yg snggup nk bg rabbit die kne sembelih,isk2..kesian..xnak la..

ok la da isyak, nk g smyg n tido,bye2 (^_^)


BERKENAAN POST SEBELUM INI..

::alhamdulillah, kekuatan itu dtg::doakan kami::




Friday 17 October 2008

dtglah wahai kekuatan...

Assalamualaikum...

Dear diary,

feel like writing something today..i have 2 weeks more..to gather all the STRENGTH remain in me..to ask ONE BIG THING, to my parents..janji harus ditepati..yah..yahh...am i strong enough to ask them, without any support from anyone..not even my sis, who, i owez thought wud be here with me to make things easier..i never thought things will turn out like this..huhuhuhu~

rase bersalah dgn Allah, diri sendiri, malu dgn org sekeliling...for all bad things i did the whole year.. i know it's wrong..if only i knew about this, i wouldn't let myself get into it..how come, i never knew about it before?of all good things i learned, i never knew about this..how JAHIL i was. in fact, i'm JAHIL in many things..dulu dan skrg..

"bercouple itu haram" - full stop. i did some research on the internet, and from any sources which can lead me to an acceptable answer. many opinions. many ideas. many fights.but i can say that - i agree with the above statement.

sedikit flashback..i think, keadaan sekeliling sgtlah membahayakn utk org islam yg x berilmu pengetahuan, yg skdr beramal ikut org lain, ikut ape yg org praktik kt asrama..ikut ape yg org2 tua buat...w/out asking the relevance of what we are doing.. dan SAYA adelah : boleh dikatekn org seperti itu..i do what i think is right.. BUT most of the time , what i think IS RIGHT, is not that RIGHT..

i never knew bercouple itu haram..when i'm into the situation [of what people call 'bercouple'].. barulah sy tahu yg bercouple itu haram. So, if you were in my place ... what IS your decision NEXT??
keadaan sekeliling dah merubah ramai org utk memandang baik ape yg kite buat..smpai kdg2 kite lupe yg mana 1 halal n yg mana 1 hrm..sdgkn= yg HALAL itu NYATA, yg HARAM itu NYATA..

and my weakness IS: i am not good in conveying WHAT I KNOW to those who don't know. seriously, I AM NOT GOOD at it. utk mnyampaikn ilmu baru ini, kelebihan 'tabligh' itu xde dlm diri ni..i myself did mistakes, terase malu utk mnympaikn sesuatu yg kite sndiri buat..walaupun niat tu slalu ade dlm hati..

x nak ckp pnjg2 psl ni, cume berharap KEKUATAN itu dtg utk melangkah lebih berani, n semoga usaha yg akan dtg ini mdapat berkat n redha ALLAH s.w.t..AMIN...AMIN..AMIN...


Wednesday 8 October 2008

insan : being pleased to themselves~

5 days w/out any posts~x busy but lazy :p im not going to tell everyone how NOT BUSY i was ( i think im d ONE n ONLY medical student yg tido jam8 every nite)~

but today i feel lyk saying sumthing about 'a thing' yg dah lame sgt, berkurun2 dah tersimpan dlm hati, yg xtau bile nk di expresskn..huhu~ ntah la sesuai or x,tp xpe la, dah lame sgt tersimpan, sesuai or x sesuai letak tepi..pape pn, ni cume lah my own feeling, tp of course la bkaitan dgn yg hidup n dah mati :)

tp usually, bnde2 yg x best, itu yg kte rase nk tulis kn, whyy??nape xnak tulis bnde2 yg best? pdhl bnde yg best lg byk dr bnde yg x besh..ini buknlah bnde yg xbest, cume x suke je..(ade beza x?). n dis is about people. hmmmm..penah x terlintas d hati anda, utk 'kurg menyenangi' sifat "UJUB" yg ada pd diri org lain, yg org tu x ckp yg die bangga dgn ape yg die ade (kelebihan pape la) tp from the perangai n from the perbuatan n perckpn, u can detect the UJUBness there. [i like to see people. but i dont wanna judge them if i dont know them very well. so dis case is never related to org jauh2. tp org dkat2 tidak semestinye related.hmmmm~i want to talk bout this generally.]

kdg2, org2 yg ade aura2 "ujub" ni bese adelh org2 yg jrg dpt ape yg die nak. yela, org yg da dpt, or org yg dah bese dgn bnde2 yg die nak, kind of dah puas dgn hidup,or dah bese dgn "keajaiban" or "kelebihan", so nothing more impressiveR (sory melebih2kn) can make them impressed.sbb tu la org dah berumur bese lebih matang,coz da capai byk bnde n kejayaan dlm hidup. I rily wanna live n surrounded with org2 matang mcm ni.tp memikirkn bnde2 mcm ni timbulkn bnde lain pulak --> apekah sy sudah tua utk rase nk hidup dgn org2 tua??huhhuhu~

n, org2 yg tak kecapi lg ape yg die dpt, sebolehnye nk berusaha tnjukkn kebolehan diri, but sumtymes terlebih2 smpai timbulkn rase 'kurg senang' di hti org2 skeliling.. slhkah utk rase annoying dgn org mcm ni?or maybe i shouldn't write bout this here?mayb i should directly pray to Allah : to change n at least make the perangai of this kind of ppl more acceptable?

hmmm..mgkn ade yg pk, btolkah org ni ade rase ujub? how do i know? hmmm,maybe i get them wrong.but im 22years old now, dah x terkire brape bungkus garam kt dapur da hbis utk mkn, utk mmahami org lain..i juz feel it.. i perasaan jrg menipu,kn?ke perasaan pun slalu tipu?hmmm...

im not a close-minded person, bukn xnak trime type org2 mcm ni..i oso want to be a matured girl. but i owez look down ppl who underestimate others.as if they r too perfect to condemn others. dr dulu, i keep in mind dat "MATURITY" - is when u can accept people for who they are. sumthing lyk, bile org ni wat cmtu..so kte pn kne ckp "xpe la..die mmg mcm tu, lame2 berubah la tu"..or "pelan2 lah..bg die mase", ataupn.. "xpe la, bese la tu, kn manusia ni ade mcm2 jenis..kalo x, bosan la hidup ni"..yess, dulu n even skrg, i owez try to hv dis kinds of thought to others..tp i admit my level of kesabarn pn ada bts..n the level of accepting others pn ade bts..kdg2 rase 'kurg senang' tu dtg..

i know, by writing bout this here, i wont change anythng, tp ckuplah ade yg tahu...n ade yg memahami..ok la bye2!


Friday 3 October 2008

PEREMPUAN dan PMS ~ camane nk control..:(

Assalamualaikum,

Bcoz im havin problm creating a frenster blog, i decided to have one here- after a couple of times deleting my accounts.huhu.

So, for my 1st post, i'd like to say sumthing about my own prob, which i think were experienced by most women out there..pliz forgive me for any wrong ideas of my thinking. It is about PMS-or pre-menstrual syndrome. Why this topic? coz im having it rite now, n im quite annoyed with it.huhu~ let it be more interesting to read..

sape yg penah kne PMS ni, sure tau la kn how it feels. ntahla, sumtymes we know it's gonna happen, but we juz dunno how to cntrol it. kdg2 bole je, tp tu pn if xde bnde yg trigger,huhu.

smlm, i went to jatos, pegi superindo nk beli air minum, kt stu ramai org,tp kaunter yg bukak 2 je. pastu line pnjg, n ade la sorg budak ni, da line pnjg mcm tu, die pegi potong turn lak, masuk2 in front of me, da la brg die byk 1 bakul, mine hanyelah sebotol air n setin air, rase nk ketuk je kpale budak tu dgn air tin tym tu. nsb baik la ni negara indon, which is his country, not my country. haha. xleh imagine if sy ketuk kpale budak tu :p bukn ape, mmg xkn ketuk pn, tp siyes rase mcm nk ketuk tu ade.huhu.

pastu, cashier kt kauntr tu lg satu hal, da tau line pnjg, n kaunter 2 je, buat la mcm 2kaunter. buat keje punye la lmbt, pastu asyik pegi sane pg sni pg stu..huhu.. when it was my turn, smpat g die nk kire2 duit beratus2 ribu yg byk tu, mgkn ade kpntingn die wat mcm tu, tp tym tu i was like, so angry with the guy b4 me, just cudnt cntrol my anger.

pastu, otw nk kuar naek atas, org kt eskalator in front of me, i think dis is the 1st time die naik eskalator kot. (ni btol2, bukn lawak,hehe). die nk naik eskalator, tp lmbt2 coz takut kot, so i wait for her to be on the escalator, cian die, tp sbb tym tu mood tgh x ok, rase mcm x sabar pn ade gak.huhu.nsb baik la die buat lawak tym escalator tu da nk hbis, i thought nk lgkh kuar dr escalator tu lg sng utk die, rupenye tak. hihi. xleh cite how the thing happened, jd x lawak lak, tp xpela. abaikn cite tu.hehe.

I quickly realized dat it's time for my pms, n bnde2 kecik mcm ni pn leh bwat rase 'panas' di dlm hati.huhu.
Lg, bnde2 yg brlaku smlm n hari ni yg sgt obvious to show the significance of PMS in me :

1-smlm budak junior bale buat bising kt blakang, i was sooo angry wif them, jerit2 bising mcm kne histeria. nsb baik skrg xde exam.hhuhu.

2-pg td, bgn pg nk bekfes, tym tgh pnskn mknn kt dapur, i left my food jap coz nk tadah air kt toilet, xsmpai 3minit pn, n time kuar nk g amek fud, kucing dgn bestnye tgh mkn my fud.

3- pg td, mop lantai kt bwh, da bersih da sume, so naik atas lipat baju jap. n tym turun bwh balik, kt lntai, penuh dgn tapak kaki kucing yg bertanah2.waaaaaaaa...can u imagine how i feel..huhuhu~

There's not much i knew about PMS, but i did learn bout it during my repro sem last yr, PMS ni ade 2 kinds of symptoms : physical and psychological.

Physical symptom cntohnye headache,fatigue, breast tenderness, n bloating. x sume org akan rase symptom2 ni, from kajian only about 75% of women. tp byk la tu kn.

Psychological symptom plak : rase annoying dgn org, cpt marah, emosi tganngu, tension n low mood. this one i believe most of us pnah rase kn.

BUT the thing is, HOW to cntrol? i tried to study more on this thing. tp the only basic thing i know is, prior to menses, the effectiveness of SSRI (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor) is increased. means, less synaptic serotonin kn? i bet some of u hv no idea bout what serotonin is. It is a hormone. n basically it increases mood. waktu PMS, serotonin level kurg coz reuptake is inhibited. sbb tu la kot kte pmpuan2 bese akn cpt mrh tym ni. tp serotonin not only low during menses, bile2 pn serotonin leh kurg. time nk exam, kalo bole, mkn la byk2 chocolate.

Ramai tau kn dlm choc ade byk serotonin, xtau la ni psychological effect or not, tp after i knew all bout this, i tried to eat choc more, n everytime i eat, my mood increased.haha. xtau la. tp dats what i feel.

Lg 1, ade 1 of my fren said in nenas, ade byk tryptophan (an amino acid) which is essential in synthesizing serotonin. so mkn la nenas byk2 insyaAllah mood akn ok blk,hehehe.

ok la, da pnjg da, actually x leh type lame2, da kelam kabut dah skrg coz betri laptop da nk hbes. xde letrik tp nk gak tulis blog,huhu. kalo ade slh pape dlm pengetahuan sy yg terbatas ini, sile lah tegur k. Juz wanna share sumthing, coz dis pms sgtlah mengganggu me kdg2.huhu

sekian, wslm